The song "Don't I Deserve" by Elijah Blake tells the story of a complicated romantic relationship. The narrator describes how their partner has changed over time, going from being health-conscious and focused on fitness to smoking more. They also mention the miscommunication and lack of understanding between them. The narrator struggles with their feelings for their partner and the commitment they have to someone else. They feel torn between the two, knowing that breaking off their engagement would harm another person's life. The partner pushes them to make a decision, questioning if they deserve to be chosen over the narrator's current commitment. The chorus expresses the difficulty of loving the partner and the bad timing of their situation. The narrator acknowledges that someone else loves them and may be better suited for them, but they still question if they deserve to be chosen. The song also touches on the partner's attempts to manipulate the narrator and make them feel guilty. Despite this, the narrator asserts that they won't come back, even though the partner may deserve it. Towards the end, the narrator takes responsibility for their partner's changed behavior, realizing that they influenced them to become the way they are. They reflect on how their relationship is wreaking havoc on their happiness and question if starting over again is worth it. Overall, "Don't I Deserve" explores themes of love, commitment, guilt, and self-worth in a complicated relationship where multiple parties are involved.
