The song "i used to" by Isomonstrosity, International Contemporary Ensemble & Kacy Hill is a reflection on the feeling of loneliness, despite being surrounded by people. The lyrics describe the experience of going out and feeling alone, but now missing the social interaction as the singer is feeling even more isolated. Despite this, the singer finds solace in knowing that they are still in love. The repetition of "I used to go out" highlights the change in the singer's social behavior and the feeling of missing something that used to be a regular part of their life. The chorus, "At least I'm still in love, It's more than I could want" emphasizes the importance of love as a source of fulfillment, even when other aspects of life may be lacking or changing. The repetition of the phrase "I've been losing my mind" throughout the song suggests a sense of instability and uncertainty in the singer's life. However, the plea for help to "explain the meaning" may suggest the singer's desire for clarity and understanding in their experiences. Overall, the song conveys the struggle of dealing with loneliness and changes in one's social life, but also highlights the importance of finding love and connection as a source of comfort.
