The song "Suicidal" by Justin Stone explores themes of depression, self-destruction, and finding a way to keep going despite the hardships. The lyrics delve into the artist's personal struggles with mental health and the pressures he feels to conform to societal expectations. The song starts with the admission that he is currently depressed and acknowledges that he was never what others wanted him to be. He reveals that he turns to alcohol as a coping mechanism and often finds himself drunk at 3 AM, questioning why he's running away from his problems. He admits to feeling fucked up and admits to having suicidal thoughts, but at the same time, he asserts that he is still living. Despite the darkness in his mind, he takes solace in numbness and self-medication. He implies that he can't listen to others because he's too deep into his own torment and it's too late to make a different decision. He vents his emotions and fears through writing notes, feeling the presence of death, and losing himself in the validation from women. The chorus repeats the line "currently depressed" and emphasizes that he is admitting his state of mind, even if it includes a hint of suicidal thoughts. He reminds himself that he is still living, even if he is struggling. In the second verse, the artist describes feelings of dizziness and the temptation to jump off a bridge. He looks down, asking God if it's alright for him to continue living. He reflects on never expecting to reach such a low point in his life but is grateful that he survived on his own terms. The song concludes with a repetition of the chorus, emphasizing that while he is in a state of depression, he is still living and striving to find a way forward. Overall, "Suicidal" expresses the artist's emotional turmoil, his battles with depression, and his determination to keep going despite the darkness he faces. It serves as a reminder that even in the midst of pain and hardship, there is hope for a better future.
