Luke Gawne's song "Suicide Note" is a powerful and introspective track where the artist expresses his frustrations, struggles, and contemplation of suicide. The lyrics delve into themes of feeling unfulfilled, hopeless, and betrayed by the world. The song opens with an exclamation of anger towards the world and a desire to escape from it. Luke reflects on his two decades of experiences, mentioning the hardships he has faced. He feels depleted, both financially and emotionally, leading him to hit rock bottom. Amidst the darkness, Luke admits to self-medicating with Kolonopin (a prescription medication) to alleviate his mental distress. He realizes that everything he has worked towards in life feels insignificant in the grand scheme of things. This realization hits harder for him, especially since he grew up worshiping Jesus but now finds himself living a nightmare. Dark voices interrupt the lyrics, symbolizing the internal struggles Luke faces. These voices highlight the coldness and lack of salvation in the world. Luke acknowledges that he had plans to sell his soul for fame, but the consequences of these actions have begun to weigh heavily on him. He questions the destruction of nature and the negative impact money has had on society. Luke also addresses the influence of media and its role in keeping people ignorant and brainless. He admits to feeling angry at the lack of knowledge in the world and contemplates self-inflicted harm. The revolver spinning sound effect gives a chilling portrayal of his mental state. In a moment of frustration, Luke vents his anger towards the world by derogatorily referring to Donald Trump. This leads him to say goodbye to the cruel world and to ask for forgiveness for his anger and the mistakes he has made. Throughout the song, Luke questions his purpose and the pursuit of rap as a career. He mentions wanting to make a better life for his mother, but he is uncertain if he is on the right path. He asks for one more chance to prove himself and express his gratitude and love to his family, friends, and fans. Luke reflects on the possibility of his legacy and wonders if he will achieve eternal fame or be reduced to ashes. He emphasizes his determination to succeed in the rap game, showcasing his determination to overcome obstacles and conquer each track. He draws parallels between his struggles in life and surviving a crash to portray his resilience and perseverance. Despite the dark nature of the song, Luke clarifies that it is not actually a suicide note but rather a reflection on his life and choices. It is a goodbye to the future he once envisioned but decided to set aside. The sound of the gunshot at the end represents a figurative ending to this chapter in his life. "Suicide Note" by Luke Gawne serves as a vulnerable and raw expression of the artist's inner turmoil, frustrations, and his desire for a better life. Ultimately, it highlights the need for understanding, support, and compassion for individuals going through challenging times.
