"Who I Gotta Be" is a song by oddCouple featuring Elijah Blake and Melanie Faye. The lyrics depict a tumultuous relationship where the narrator expresses their frustration and hurt caused by their partner's actions. The song starts with the narrator acknowledging that no one has ever loved them like their current partner, but also recognizing that they have been hurt deeply by this person. They express their confusion when they try to move on and love someone new, only to be pulled back into their partner's grasp, leaving them feeling blue. The chorus highlights the narrator's desperation to be loved the way they need to be loved. They question who they have to be in order to make their partner love them as they deserve. This reflects their longing for a healthy and fulfilling relationship. As the song progresses, the narrator reveals how their partner continues to disappoint them. Even when they try to forgive and move on, their partner's actions remind them of the pain they have caused. The mention of random numbers texting their partner suggests that there may be infidelity or suspicious behavior involved, causing the narrator to question their partner's loyalty and intentions. The bridge emphasizes the frustration and disappointment the narrator feels towards their partner's behavior. They wonder if their partner has any shame for their actions, especially since the whole world is watching and judging them. The line "throw dirt on my name" suggests that their partner may spread rumors or tarnish their reputation. Overall, "Who I Gotta Be" portrays a tumultuous relationship filled with emotional pain, mistrust, and longing for a love that their partner fails to deliver. The lyrics express the narrator's frustration and their desire for a partner who can love them in the way they truly need.
