"Lyrics：I said 'I love you baby,' 'Well you ain't act like it; Squeeze my feet, kiss my neck, rub my back like it' And on the phone it's just 'You gon hit me back right quick?' First we was straight now it feel like we jack-knifin'" These lyrics depict a conversation between two people in a relationship. The speaker expresses their love for the other person but feels that the actions of their partner do not align with their words. They mention specific gestures like foot massages, neck kisses, and back rubs that they desire from their partner. "Kamikaze love, self-destructive patterns Mercury in retrograde, four house of Saturn Nothing makes me sadder than Hailing cabs alone goin home on a Saturday Bumpin' Donny Hathaway, questioning my choices Thinkin 'bout marriage, carriage, and horses Manor on a hectare of land like a fortress I hope you understand me" In these lines, the speaker refers to their love as "kamikaze," implying that it is intense and self-destructive. They mention astrological references like "Mercury in retrograde" and "four house of Saturn," which may symbolize difficulties or challenges in their love life. The speaker expresses sadness about spending Saturday nights alone and contemplates their life choices, including thoughts of marriage. They aspire to create a secure and stable life for themselves, symbolized by a manor on a large piece of land. "Yo, I'm cold like New York, my heart is warm like Miami I'm just trying to build a Kingdom for my people and my Family" Here, the speaker juxtaposes their emotional state with the contrasting climates of New York and Miami. While they may appear cold on the outside, their heart is warm and compassionate. Their ultimate goal is to create a sense of unity and prosperity for their community and family. "Sometimes I don't know what to say The pain never stops, the cloud never goes away The rain never drops It's a luxury Be grateful that a mustard seed of faith is enough to be Enough to move a mountain My pen is an artery, my heart is a fountain I apologize" In these lines, the speaker expresses feelings of helplessness and an inability to find the right words to convey their emotions. They also acknowledge the ongoing pain they feel, emphasizing that the darkness (cloud) and sadness (rain) persist. However, they consider this pain a luxury, reminding listeners to be grateful for even a tiny amount of faith, as it can have a significant impact. The speaker likens their pen to an artery, suggesting that their writing is a vital lifeline, and their heart is a limitless source of creativity. They conclude by apologizing, possibly for their vulnerability or the complexity of their emotions. Overall, this song by Jay Electronica explores themes of love, frustration, and self-reflection. The lyrics touch upon the dichotomy between words and actions in a relationship, the challenges of maintaining a positive mindset in difficult times, and the desire to create a better future for oneself and loved ones.
