The song "My Apology" by Elefant explores the feelings of a person who is trying to break free from a toxic and damaging relationship. The lyrics depict a strained and unhealthy connection between two individuals. The narrator begins by acknowledging their departure, repeatedly stating that they are gone and can't continue with the relationship. The other person seems upset and distressed, possibly showing signs of emotional pain through their red eyes. The presence of dead flowers on the floor symbolizes the decay and deterioration of their love. The other person tries to convince the narrator that they are wrong about ending the relationship. However, the narrator insists that they cannot go on and apologizes for the lonely nights that may have been caused by their decision. They express remorse but admit that they cannot hide their true feelings. In the chorus, the narrator conveys that they are being suffocated by the other person's love. This love is depicted as a destructive force that is slowly killing them. They plead to be set free from the touch and influence of this love. The song continues with the narrator expressing regret for the events of a particular night, where they had a final and terrible fight. They also apologize for being on the run and explain that they are unable to continue. The messiness of the situation is acknowledged, but the narrator assures the other person that it is not their fault. They tried to warn them about their intentions from the start. In the bridge, the narrator implores the other person to look into their eyes, perhaps hoping to communicate their sincerity and desire for liberation. The chorus is repeated, emphasizing the suffocating nature of the relationship and the plea for freedom. The narrator acknowledges that leaving is their apology to the other person. The song concludes with the repeated line, "I'm trying to leave you." The repetition emphasizes their determination to break free from the toxic cycle. The plea for assistance in explaining their feelings and situation reflects their struggle to express themselves and find the right words to convey their emotions. Overall, "My Apology" tells the story of a person who is trying to extricate themselves from an unhealthy relationship, expressing their remorse while also yearning for freedom and liberation from a love that is destroying them.
