The song "Nihil" by Haarper explores the feelings of loneliness, emptiness, and struggle with addiction. The lyrics ask if the listener can feel the pain emanating from their core and question why the protagonist feels so alone, as if they were holding a gun to their head. The chorus suggests that the protagonist has contemplated suicide, but instead of taking their own life, they will metaphorically "throw [their] ashes in the river" and try to become a giver instead of a sinner. They vow to stay away from painkillers - possibly referencing prescription drug abuse - and continue fighting their addiction and pain. The song's title, "Nihil", is Latin for "nothing" or "purposeless". This may allude to the protagonist's feelings of emptiness and lack of direction, as they struggle to find meaning and purpose in their life. The repeated refrain that "every move's a hesitation" further reinforces this struggle. Overall, "Nihil" is a somber yet hopeful exploration of addiction, loneliness, and the human struggle to find purpose and meaning in life.
