"Repellent" is a song by the band Hail The Sun. The lyrics discuss feelings of disconnect, mental struggles, and the desire to maintain distance from others. The song explores themes of self-reflection and questioning one's identity. The song begins by describing the horrors and disconnect that the narrator detects in their surroundings. They mention the need for medication and the decimation caused by it. The phrase "mental moat rocks the boat of progress" suggests that their mental barriers are hindering personal growth. The chorus then addresses the listener directly, asking what they do when they have the chance. The narrator feels called out on their flaws and tricks that they potentially use to manipulate situations. They also mention seeing dread when they look in the mirror and realizing their own faults. In the following verse, the narrator discusses their chosen social interaction, which is brief and distant. They prefer this type of interaction, and there is a quick dissolution of deeper connections. They question their own identity and wonder if they are who they truly want to be. The mention of seeing their name on someone's grave suggests a fear of being remembered negatively. The bridge of the song highlights the annoyance the narrator feels when confronted about their flaws, and how it triggers a sense of dread in them. Despite resenting their faults, they admit to being invested in their behavior. The song ends with the repetition of the phrase "So I stayed alone." This line reinforces the theme of detachment and the choice to keep distance from others, possibly as a defense mechanism. Overall, "Repellent" explores the internal struggles, self-reflection, and detachment experienced by the narrator. It delves into themes of personal growth, self-acceptance, and the desire to maintain distance from others due to insecurities and faults.
