The song "Collection Of Thoughts" by JJ Heller seems to be about the speaker's struggle with trying to please someone else and conform to their expectations. They express their desire to save the day and alleviate the sorrows of this person, but despite their efforts, it doesn't result in any positive outcome. The lyrics imply that the speaker has been pretending to be someone they're not, feeling the need to be someone else in order to make the other person happy. In the chorus, the speaker asks who the other person wants them to be, indicating their willingness to give their best effort to meet those expectations. However, they also acknowledge that if they succeed, they will ultimately diminish themselves in the process. The speaker then admits that they can no longer pretend to be someone they're not. They have wasted their time and struggled to please the other person, but it's never enough. They have grown tired of living a lie and suppressing their true emotions, feeling like something inside of them dies whenever they do so. Towards the end of the song, the speaker has a revelation and accepts themselves for who they truly are. They question their right to question their own existence, realizing that they shouldn't doubt their own identity and purpose. They conclude by presenting their humble reflection, referring to the collection of thoughts they have shared throughout the song. Overall, the song seems to convey a message of self-acceptance and the importance of staying true to oneself, rather than constantly trying to change for the sake of pleasing others.
