The song "Hell Of It" by Emarosa explores a tumultuous and dysfunctional relationship. The lyrics illustrate a dynamic where one person gives their all to the other, hoping for a better connection and outcome. However, despite their efforts, the relationship remains strained and unsatisfying. The song begins with the protagonist expressing their willingness to go through fire for their partner, metaphorically representing their commitment and sacrifices. However, instead of appreciating this gesture, the partner simply walks through the fire, dismissing or disregarding the effort. The protagonist also mentions providing their partner with power, but it seems futile as the partner is referred to as a coward. This suggests that despite being given opportunities or resources, the partner may not fully utilize them or take action. The repetition of the line "It's all on my mind, so many times, we could be better" reveals the frustration and disappointment the protagonist feels. They believe that the relationship has potential for improvement, but it seems like the partner is unwilling or unable to change. There is a sense of melancholy in the line "I love the way you cried, and I, I realized." It implies that the protagonist has recognized the toxic nature of the relationship but still derives some twisted satisfaction from seeing their partner suffer emotionally. The chorus repeats the phrase "I did it for the hell of it." This indicates that the protagonist may have engaged in the relationship and made sacrifices without a clear purpose or understanding. It could suggest that they were acting out of desperation or a desire for some form of self-gratification, even if it meant enduring a difficult relationship. The bridge of the song emphasizes the transformation that has occurred within the relationship. The line "We've become what we've become" suggests that the dynamic between the two individuals has changed over time, likely becoming more dysfunctional or destructive. Overall, "Hell Of It" portrays a relationship characterized by unfulfilled expectations, frustration, and a cycle of emotional turmoil. The lyrics highlight the protagonist's realization of the unhealthy nature of the relationship and their willingness to endure it for reasons that may not be entirely clear, symbolized by the repeated phrase "I did it for the hell of it."
