"Heavy Mental" is a song by Esham, a rapper from Detroit known for his horrorcore style. The lyrics express Esham's experiences and mindset in the music industry, as well as his perspective on life. The song begins by stating that it is not about boasting about women but about making money. Esham mentions his success and various ways he has been earning money. He also acknowledges the influence of those who came before him and the importance of paying tribute to them. The reference to paying dues and having blood stains on his shoes suggests the struggles he faced to achieve his success. Esham also mentions spraying (shooting) at other crews who were not up to his standard. Esham reflects on his past and acknowledges his sins, asking for forgiveness. He talks about keeping control while others sell their souls and emphasizes the importance of not being deceived by appearances. He mentions the need to follow the "G code" (gangsta code) and timing when to take action. Esham claims to be knowledgeable about how to navigate life and relationships. Esham mentions his role in influencing other rappers, bringing them back to life metaphorically with his teachings. He boasts about his presence in different neighborhoods and the recognition he receives. He emphasizes the importance of unity and always speaking the truth. The lyrics take a darker turn as Esham discusses being labeled a skeptic and paranoid. He mentions his obsession with murder music and the constant presence of death in his mind. Esham expresses feelings of being targeted and not receiving the same respect as he gives. He believes that others are trying to kill him figuratively and speaks about waking up to a violent reality but finding solace in his morning coffee. Esham describes his destructive tendencies, claiming to cut ties and overpower others. He references the complexity of deception throughout history, tracing it back to Adam and Eve. He raps about being mentally unstable and unapologetic, mentioning a rental car incident. Esham declares that his music is for those who have lied to him and invites them to join him on a murderous journey. He concludes by saying that he would die for his fans because they would die for him. Overall, "Heavy Mental" showcases Esham's unique perspective on life, his experiences in the music industry, and his darker mindset. The lyrics touch on themes of success, loyalty, deception, and the constant presence of death.
