The song "Slug Froma 45" by Esham is a dark and intense depiction of the artist's feelings of depression, suicidal thoughts, and inner turmoil. The lyrics express his struggle with voices in his head that want to kill him and the constant feeling of wanting to die. The title "Slug Froma 45" refers to being shot with a .45 caliber bullet. Esham opens the song by describing how he obtained a slug (bullet) from a .45 gun, and now he feels compelled to take his own life. The voices in his head and the presence of the bullet make him believe that death is the only way to find solace. He likens himself to a madman in a hospital, highlighting his disturbed mental state. The lyrics also speak to the artist's feelings of emptiness and despair. He believes that putting the bullet in his mouth and closing his eyes would end his suffering. He mentions the societal expectation for men not to show their emotions, stating that a man never cries when he dies. Throughout the song, Esham expresses a sense of resignation and acceptance of his fate. He acknowledges that he now has a hole in his head, a reference to his self-destructive thoughts. Despite feeling the urge to die, he reflects on the fact that he has already lost a lot by being dragged down and buried alive. The overall meaning behind the song revolves around the artist's deep pain, mental instability, and his contemplation of suicide. It serves as a raw and emotional testament to the artist's struggles with his own demons.
