The song "My Whole Life (LA)" by James Hersey is a reflective and introspective track that explores the complexities of romantic relationships and personal experiences. The lyrics convey a sense of confusion, uncertainty, and the struggle to find clarity and answers. In the first verse, the narrator pleads with someone not to ask why they can't provide satisfying answers or dedicate all their time and life to them. This implies that the narrator is unable to fully commit or give their all, possibly due to unresolved internal conflicts or emotional barriers. The second verse describes the narrator's feelings when they think about the person they are addressing. Their name triggers a rush of emotions and fascination, yet the narrator is physically absent. The mention of closing their eyes against the rain suggests attempts to escape or avoid confronting these emotions. Despite their efforts, they remain restless and unable to fully let go of the thoughts and dreams associated with this person. The phrase "fake this time" hints at the possibility of the narrator pretending or not being true to themselves in this situation. The lyrics then shift to an observation that takes place hours later ("Let us observe the effects some three hours later"). The phrase "My whole life" repeated multiple times can be interpreted as both a reflection on the narrator's current emotional state and as a response to the request for explanations from earlier. It signifies the inability to give their entire self and invest completely in the relationship. The subsequent lines describe a deep sense of wonder and beauty experienced by the narrator, possibly inspired by being in Los Angeles (the "LA" in the song title). Overall, "My Whole Life (LA)" explores themes of emotional distance, personal barriers, and the struggle to provide satisfactory answers in relationships. The lyrics allude to a complex inner world and the various factors that may contribute to the narrator's hesitation and inability to fully commit.
