The song "ihateit" by Underoath explores themes of self-reflection, regret, addiction, and the desire for redemption. It tells the story of someone who once believed they had everything under control but fell back into destructive habits that eventually tore them apart. The lyrics express remorse for not being able to apologize for their actions and the struggle to sleep alone at night. The protagonist acknowledges that these destructive habits are not good for them or for their loved ones, and if they were to die, they would make it up to the person they hurt. The chorus reveals that the person they hurt is the only thing that gives them a sense of euphoria or "high." However, they hate the fact that they rely on this person for their happiness while recognizing the damage they have caused. The lyrics also touch on the protagonist's dissatisfaction with their own self-image and how they despise the person they see when looking in the mirror. They express a desire to seek the truth and make amends if they find their soul to be weak. "I'm just a user" is a line that implies the protagonist has taken advantage of the person they hurt. They wear a metaphorical "beggar's crown," symbolizing their lowly and undeserving state. They acknowledge that if given the chance to change the past, they wouldn't because they believe it has shaped them into who they are. Towards the end of the song, the lyrics take a spiritual turn, with the protagonist addressing a higher power and expressing that they don't deserve the life they have been given. They acknowledge their inability to change but plead for forgiveness and a chance at redemption. Overall, "ihateit" delves into the dark depths of regret, addiction, and the longing for redemption. It explores the complexities of human nature and the internal struggle to reconcile past mistakes with the desire to change and make amends.
