"Ambivalent" (アンビバレント) by Eve is a Japanese song that explores the conflicting feelings and emotions that the protagonist experiences. The lyrics depict a struggle between wanting to move forward and fearing the potential pain and vulnerability that comes with it. The song begins with the protagonist questioning why they cannot take a step forward, despite their aversion to getting hurt. They feel as though their emotions and passions have been left behind somewhere, leaving them feeling empty. However, they still face their emotions head-on. In the chorus, the protagonist knocks on the door of their heart, seeking to understand their true feelings and wanting to hear them. They express a desire to embrace their emotional and impulsive side, as well as their rational and calm side. The protagonist acknowledges their tendency to feel embarrassed or hesitant, but they continuously seek self-discovery and self-acceptance. As the song progresses, the protagonist reflects on their childhood and how they used to believe they were the main character of the world. However, they have become more self-conscious and prone to avoiding their emotions. They realize that they have developed a greater desire to protect the things they care about, but they are unsure of their own feelings and who they truly are. They yearn to uncover their authentic self and be captivated by it. Towards the end, the protagonist acknowledges their past loneliness and the struggles they faced. They urge themselves to speak up and not let their voice be silenced. They proclaim that it is now their turn to face the challenges and be in control of their own life. The protagonist encourages themselves and the listener to synchronize their breaths, sending a signal to ignite the flames of passion within their hearts. Overall, "Ambivalent" explores the internal conflicts and contradictions that the protagonist experiences. It tackles themes of self-discovery, vulnerability, and the desire to embrace and accept one's true emotions.
