"Failure Girl" by JubyPhonic is a song that explores the feelings of self-doubt, inadequacy, and the desire for acceptance and love. The lyrics depict a person who constantly believes they are a failure and questions their worthiness of love and attention from others. The song begins with the narrator acknowledging their belief that they will continuously fail, questioning how many more failures they can endure before giving in completely. The scars and emotional pain they feel are tearing them apart from within, although they are trying their best to overcome it. The narrator expresses their frustration with themselves, labeling themselves as a "dummy" and becoming skilled at pretending to be okay. They mention that people around them lie about them and they believe that nobody has ever truly wanted or loved them throughout their life. The lyrics continue to illustrate the narrator's desperation and struggle. They bear their emotional pain and even contemplate begging for death, feeling as though they are barely breathing. The repeated proclamation of being a loser and a failure highlights their deep-seated insecurities and negative self-perception. The narrator wonders if doing everything right would make a difference in how others perceive and treat them, but fears that it ultimately wouldn't matter. They express the desire for love but feel the need to lie and pretend in order to receive it. The idea of smiling more being a potential solution to being loved by others is also mentioned, showcasing their desperate search for acceptance. In the second verse, the narrator mentions getting scratches and scars again, implying that their struggles and pain continue. They hide their emotional turmoil, pretending as if nothing is wrong. Despite the lies others spread about them, they are determined to endure the pain and beatings, accepting it as their reality. The chorus repeats, emphasizing the narrator's feeling of being a loser and a failure and questioning if anyone truly wants them around. They acknowledge that even if they did everything right, it wouldn't make a difference, leading to a sense of hopelessness and despair. In the bridge, the narrator cries out to God, expressing their desire to be reborn as a girl who is loved in their next life. They long for the feeling of being desired and cared for, wishing for a better existence. They hope that their heart will be soothed by their own song and that by morning, they will be able to smile again. The song concludes with the narrator bidding farewell to their perceived failure of a life, wishing for rest and peaceful sleep. The lyrics evoke a sense of sadness and desperation, highlighting the longing for love, acceptance, and the struggle to find self-worth in a world that often seems indifferent or rejecting.
