"Lost One's Weeping" by JubyPhonic is a song that explores themes of self-doubt, feeling lost, and the pressure to conform to societal norms. The lyrics depict a narrator who feels overwhelmed by their own insecurities and struggles to find their place in the world. The song begins with the narrator feeling the pain of self-doubt, comparing it to a cutting knife that deepens the rift within themselves. They reflect on their inability to handle love and relationships, recognizing that their own weaknesses have become a weapon that only hurts them. The following verses highlight the narrator's frustration with their academic struggles, particularly with the subject of English. The narrator expresses a dislike for the subject as it lacks clear-cut answers, unlike the certainty that can come with math and science. They feel that everything they choose will always be wrong, accentuating their fear of failure. As the song progresses, the narrator addresses the societal pressure to appear happy and content. They wonder why people often express sadness and loneliness despite claiming to be fine. The narrator contemplates whether others can truly understand their emotions and inner thoughts. The chorus introduces questions related to the struggles faced by others. The references to reading the blackboard and reading someone's mind allude to the difficulty of truly understanding someone's internal struggles. The narrator questions whether anyone can identify the person who has lost their happiness and turned their heart black. The song then touches on themes of mortality and self-harm. The narrator questions whether anyone can solve the problems they face, referring to using an abacus to represent finding a solution. They also mention the heartbreaking image of someone being hanged by a rope as a metaphor for mental distress and despair. In the later verses, the narrator reflects on their own existence, counting their days like numbers and feeling trapped in the cyclical nature of time. They admit to hiding behind a facade of strength and guard themselves against their internal problems. The bridge of the song acknowledges the presence of a demon within, which speaks to the desire for escape or death. The narrator questions if anyone will come forward to help or end their suffering. The final chorus reiterates the narrator's frustration with societal expectations and the pressure to conform. They question whether people can recite mathematical formulas or share their dreams openly. They wonder who is responsible for their shattered hopes and yearn for someone to explain the concept of "growing up" to them. In the end, the narrator expresses a sense of apathy towards finding answers or caring about their circumstances. They feel lost and still seek understanding and guidance. The tone of the song is one of anguish and frustration at the struggles of self-identity and societal pressures.
