The song "Am" by Marika Hackman is a reflection on a relationship that has lost its intimacy and connection. The lyrics describe a scene in the cold morning light, where one person is metaphorically described as having arms like a child, seeking comfort and solace. The mention of the carpet kissing their feet suggests a sense of vulnerability and longing. The chorus of the song talks about the person's blindness, symbolized by a kiss on their eyes, and how they seem to be lost or disconnected. The line "Flickering white between red lines" could be interpreted as the person being stuck between reality and their own thoughts or dreams. The narrator of the song wonders where this person goes in their mind, as they continue to sleep alone at 8:10 AM. The repetition of this time could signify a recurring pattern of isolation and disconnect. The lyrics also touch upon the narrator's understanding and acceptance of the other person's desire to be unconscious and inside their own mind. The line "Don't feel bad, I know you'd rather be unconscious lying there, Inside your mind" shows a level of empathy and acknowledgement of their partner's emotional state. The second verse describes a moment of physical intimacy, where the person's hard heavy mouth is contrasted with its soft pinkness. Despite this physical closeness, the narrator still senses that there are mistakes yet to be made, and again wonders where they will go as a couple. Overall, "Am" conveys a sense of distance and emotional disconnection within a relationship. The lyrics explore themes of longing, isolation, and the complexities of human intimacy.
