"Deep Green" by Marika Hackman is a song that explores themes of vulnerability, fear, and self-preservation in relationships. The song uses water symbolism and metaphors to convey the singer's hesitation to fully dive into a romantic connection. The lyrics "Just because I love your skin, Doesn't mean I'll jump in, The water's clean and warm and green, I'm not allowed to swim, I'm scared of getting in" suggest that despite having feelings for someone, the singer is wary of committing to a relationship. They are afraid of the potential risks and uncertainties that come with being emotionally vulnerable. The mention of "Batteries and Holy Ghosts, Buried in my bag of bones, She said they would help me to grow, Said feeding the stomach is feeding the soul" suggests that the singer has sought external sources of strength and guidance to navigate their emotions. However, these efforts have not fully resolved their fears. The lines "Spider web and harlequins, Wrapped around your sticky wings, It's pretty but it's hurting like hell, Cause I know that I'm unwell, My body's made of shell, And I know that you can tell" indicate the internal struggle the singer faces. While they may find the other person attractive and appealing, they are aware that they are not mentally or emotionally stable and fear the potential pain that could arise from becoming too involved. The verse "Beat me at my own damn game, Fucking with my goddamn brain, Now I will never win again, Better to love than to have and to hold" showcases the singer's frustration and feelings of being manipulated. They feel as though their emotions have been taken advantage of, causing them to lose faith in the idea of finding happiness in a relationship. Towards the end of the song, the lyrics shift to a more hopeful tone. The lines "I heard that you like to swim, Doesn't mean I'm gonna jump in, But I'll put on my swimming set, Cause I know I'm going to get wet, I know I'm going to get wet" suggest that while the singer is still cautious, they are willing to take a step forward and embrace the vulnerability that comes with love. They understand that there might be challenges, but they are willing to face them. Overall, "Deep Green" captures the complex emotions and fears that can arise when entering into a romantic connection. It portrays a journey of self-discovery and the struggle to find the courage to overcome one's fears and open up to love.
