"Drown" by Marika Hackman is a metaphorical and introspective song that explores themes of self-awareness, self-acceptance, and the complexities of relationships. The opening lines, "Oh I am bold, as brass posing as gold," suggest that the narrator presents a confident and strong front to the world, but deep down, they acknowledge their flaws and their cold nature. They are aware of their own faults and have come to terms with their true self, finding comfort in being who they are. The following lines, "And I was born with a healthy appetite for all that glisters, white and pure in the night," express the narrator's desire for things that appear attractive and enticing but might not necessarily be genuine or fulfilling. This could symbolize their search for meaning and substance in life. The chorus, "Oh, to drown in your mind I would, I know I would, to suffocate in your smoke I'd choke on you if I could, maybe I will," reveals the narrator's yearning to immerse themselves in someone else's thoughts and emotions. They are willing to sacrifice their own identity to become consumed by someone else. It represents a desire for deep emotional connection and intimacy. The lyrics, "And if I'm rough, or coarse through to my edge, you can polish me for hours, but I'll always look best in your head," indicate that the narrator recognizes their rough edges and imperfections. They are willing to let someone else try to shape and improve them, but deep down, they believe they are at their truest form when perceived by another person's idealized version of them. The bridge, "We wished for lakes been kissed by sun, we found not one, hundreds, then some," reflects on the disappointments and unfulfilled desires in life. It suggests that the narrator and their partner had hoped for something beautiful and fulfilling but instead encountered numerous disappointments. The song concludes with the repeated lines, "So, I drown in your mind I will, I know I will, and suffocate in your smoke, die, stuffing my lungs with their fill." These lines emphasize the intense desire to fully immerse themselves in someone else, even if it means losing themselves in the process. Overall, "Drown" explores the complexities of relationships, the desire for emotional connection, and the struggle to understand and accept oneself. It delves into the longing for intimacy, even if it means sacrificing one's own identity.
